Work is getting in the way of my marriage - I've become soul-crushingly good at cooking for one.

One of my coworkers was in a car accident recently. It was pretty bad and he has to have surgery, so he is going to be out of work for 6-8 weeks. This means we have to rearrange when people work to cover his shifts during the busiest time of the school year. So now I am going to be working his shifts Mon-Thurs plus my own on Mondays... in other words, 8am - 7pm on Mondays and 8am - 2pm Tues - Thurs, while Christopher works 2:30pm-11:30pm Sun - Thurs. So starting Tuesday I will no longer get to see my husband Mon - Thurs.

I am so sick of our work schedules getting in the way of our marriage. Just as soon as things are all going smoothly and we have worked out a new schedule where we can spend time together something like this happens. Usually it's his work schedule that changes and messes everything up, but the last couple of times it's been mine. All I want from our jobs are schedules that don't change, and coincide nicely so we have a weekend off together and can eat dinner together every night. I love my husband and I want to see him every single day of the week, not just most Fridays, Saturdays, and Sunday mornings.

I already spend so much time alone and now it's going to be worse. Christopher's schedule changes in July so this will just be for 5 weeks, but still I'm needy. That's 5 weeks of no hugs, kisses, or meals together Mon-Thurs. I spent the first year and a half of our marriage depressed because I was alone so much, and I know that 5 weeks isn't that long but I have already been on the verge of tears all day.

I have a 3 and a half day weekend with my husband to enjoy this weekend, but after that it's going to be 5 weeks of leftovers, shitty TV season marathons, and loneliness. I'm not dealing with this particularly well.

Hopefully my books I have on hold at the library will become available, at least that will keep me occupied for one of the weeks. And maybe I'll finally teach myself to sew... who knows.


Popular Posts